Life...

Well I haven't written in a while, my jobs going fine. We have 8 people that work there now from my ward so it's rather funny. Although since I bag Kara Chocolates (candies) daily it seems like each day passes in a blaze. It's such a strange feeling, it's like time passes and I don't know what day of the week it is, month, or anything. Feels like an eternity has passed since high school and yet it's only been a month. So how am I doing? Well I still haven't caught up in my journal which kills because it never seems like time will slow down enough for me to actually catch up. Also my weight is still an issue. I hate it, I want to exercise and such but when I get home from work I want to do nothing. I don't have energy to exercise, but I know I must, and I need to. I just hate feeling like I'm so fat which I really am, about what 20 pounds overweight or such? It seems like such a hopeless battle-one that I'll never win, and yet I need too. Next is that my jaw hurts, it pops continuously (sp) which is annoying. So I'm constantly worried that it might do something stupid or scare me. Then I have stupid family problems as usual which who knows-after all these combinations maybe I really am in a sort of depression. And why am I writing all this? I post it here because no one reads it, but yet I do. The whole world is weird right now. Especially after seeing POTC At world's end because now I realize that marriage is around the corner. It scares me- I mean just thinking about things.... Oh and did I mention that I'm avoiding trying to get my schedule for collage? Yup avoiding that too as well as I haven't gotten my drivers license yet. People think I'm weird, but really I had no interest whatsoever in learning how to drive because I can walk everywhere I need to and plus my parents and now brother have cars. There would be no room for me since they need them. But I feel as if I led myself into a dead end for I thought I'd take it this summer, but I don't think I can because I'm graduated from high school. So I really don't know what to do now. Take it from the state- I guess. So in conclusion you can guess that my life is really confusing right now with twists and turns everywhere. I don't really know where it's going anymore....