It's rant time again

Seems like the only reason I post here is to rant, but ya who cares. Anyways I still don't have my drivers license and it seems like because of that everyone is harder to do. Back in high school a friend said we should take the summer course together, why didn't I listen? Why didn't I take it? It would have been so much easier because I already knew the teachers and where the driving course was, but I was scared as usual and I still am. I could care less about driving I just want that stupid card. So now everything is harder, and I'm somehow going to take it from the state. And guess what I have no idea how to even do that. And I'm still scared about driving and everything else in this world. Who knows now I might not even be able to get into my college's testing center because my school ID card expired, even though my brother says they don't care they probably do. And I really don't want to have to go through all the trouble of getting another school ID card because it's so hard since I don't have a divers license, so I feel really stupid like why am I here? I don't belong here. I really hate this, I'm just a kid, not an adult. So go away and stop bugging me. I'll just go disappear or something...