Friendship

Wow I haven't written anything in a very long time. Finals are almost upon us.
Anyways yes, friendship. It's hard-to see a friend grow away from you. Especially
when you see them hanging out with others and having fun. It makes me sad-wish I could hang out
with them again. And when they finally log into msn messenger I feel bad for trying to strike up
a conversation because I feel like I'm bugging them since they're always busy, so I stay in the shadows.
Sometimes I wish they would just leave completely, but they're still there. It hurts me, all this
wishing and wanting for something of the past. It always seems like I take loosing friends personally or something. I don't know what to call it. Is it just because I'm a loyal friend? I don't know. I just wish I could find someone else that would click with me so well like those past friends.
It hurts.
Longing, wishing, waiting, in the shadows.